ANOTHER NEW YEARS.

ELLO, WE'RE ONE DIRECTION..
NAH AHAH

NEW YEARS AGAIN AND I GUESS IT'S TIME TO WRITE ANOTHER NEW YRS RESOLUTION!! :) WOOHOO, i loved this year.

Loved moving schools, loved all the new friends made, loved all the things I've experienced (:...except for the ones that wasted my time ahah

I love my friends, family, God, creators, people, everything else

This year has been cray cray but let's get on wit itt.

LG!!! (:

Here are my new year resolutions (:

This is what I want to achieve this year, I have achieved greatly last yr (2012) soo these are the goals I am giving to myself (: - I shall become a strong independent woman.
I will train and become a great dancer
I will not run away from my fears or create a mask for myself
I will NOT be easily persuaded/controlled by my emotions (MOODSWINGS NOO)
I forbid any romantic, badly influenced emotions to interfere with my tasks, duties and assignments.
I must contain my own identity at all costs. ahahahah (: heheho i sound like some important contract


One successful thing in life is to forget and forgive <3 br="br">

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

I am such a loser. Getting my hopes up for one little thing..I'm awful
Why am I always easily persuaded by my emotions - If something bad happens, my whole heart will come tumbling down....................grrrr

hate meshelf haha

personal blogging #1

Since I'm a pretty..passionate and loving person hehe
Nah, ok since I'm very passionate about my the things I love, my affection for it can extend to miles but my letting go can only go so far. Therefore words of encouragement gives me the power to motivate myself to do anything I can and think I am able to do. (: I love words of encouragement ....but often makes me seem like a pretty selfless person D;. I tell you ladies and gentlemen, keep giving words of encouragement to your feellow friends, it could change his/her lives (:

For more details and to obtain a how-to guide DVD

Order now on 080-

lolol im so weird.

Learn to balance life?

I've been trying to balance my life lately
another fun fact about me: I can't balance life..

I'm not one of those people who can have a million tasks coming at their way and they're still alive with everything done on the deadline.
Although I wish to be one of those people, but I have learnt that I can only consistently work on a particular activity for a small amount of time cos' you know it.. academics come first - especially when I'm coming from an asian background
Jk,
everything is about me and if I don't control how I work and keep my life balanced then it will just damage me and my future..not my parents

Hoping that I will...I shall committt myself in studies and

UGH UGH UGH. EWWWWWW!
I had the craziest dream last night!..it was so weird and...err UNDER-AGED ahaahaahha
=_________= I dreamt that I was gettin married....to a person who I don't like and I will be fosho' completely and honestly unhappy wit my life. But then at the same time, it was this random marriage competition with the groom that was showing live on t.v. I was competing it with these other brides (OK MAYBE IT WAS BECAUSE I WATCHED BUBIOSITY'S FLIRTING THING WITH THE EMPEROR I CHINA)

the lady is soo ugray ahaha
-check the vid out-

They always say that you dream about the last thing that's on your mind or the most distinctive thing....idk
ahaha..as I was saying - I was compeeting with a bunch of bridezillas for the groom AND some sort of luxury honeymoon..wedding prize if the groom picks me. But I was more like struggling if I should pick the groom to be my forevaa partner in greatness ==". I told myself yes because I liked him..in a non-intimate way? But then in the end I said no because I had to choose what's best for myself - and that dream completely freaked me out..somehow (You gotta experience it to know it ahah) and the moral to the dream is :D...that I'm an easy person when it comes to love
..and I should put myself first and know what is right for me (:

Jenna and Alaric from Vamp Diaries

I'm kinda like the Jenna to the Logan in vampire diaries..sighh
Logan tells Jenna how "When it's a maybe, it's always one stage closer to a yes"...something like that.

Miss Ann, you give in too easily.
): I don't wanna give in too easily, I wanna be a strong independent black woman! HEHE

DANCE.

argh, so I have to write about a two min speech about why I love dance for my showcase.

I actually don't know...if you asked me why I loved it a year or two ago then I would explain to you how dance is my therapist, my drug - how it frees me from stress and the world. It's an excuse to find freedom and to interact with myself. (I have discovered that I use it as a path to know more about myself) I love it because it gives me hope and meaning in life. When you perform on stage, you can become a completely different character and society won't judge you for that - you can act like the bully at school, the crazy maniac or even the sexy girl you see on tv and no one will judge you for that. Dance reminds me of my childhood... it reminds me of the naive little girl who was so determined to follow my dream. It is the mould to my sculpture of becoming who I am. One year, my parents made me quit dancing because of distraction to study and how it's a 'hobby' to my life. That year, I lost myself. I was constantly bored and upset, I felt like I had nothing to do with my life..and  I no longer knew the definition of who "ann" was because I lost myself. My friendship and the way I act changed all around me - I wasn't the same. But what I learnt from that mistake was - I won't let anything get in the way of what I love and I managed to get back to dancing and this year - I was able to find my hunger for dance again.



Yeah..after writing that, I helped myself a lot more to discover what I love about dance.
The reason why I say 'a year or two ago' is cos' I have a lot of things blocked within me atm, and I need to free it to think.

Dear God - Welcome

ARGH ARGH ARGH! women and their periods!
THIS IS WHAT I HATE ABOUT BEING A WOMAN. MOOD SWINGS MOOD SWINGS, can I control it? I don't even realise when I'm having mood swings so how can I control it?! I've been throwing everyone away! ): I just feel like being alone..but at the same time, I want someone to talk to! I've met a lot of great people the past few days, discovered more about the people I already knew and faced many challenges from my all-time time consumer - dance. I went to church today, it was amazing! I felt like crying....the pastor really knows what he was talking about and I guess I'll just call her the healer...(:
She prayed for me, and she knew EXACTLY what was going on in my life. like...so accurate to the extent where I was nearly in tears (I've spoken to others that has experienced that feeling) it was fascinating, and I just love the great vibe within the church. I've decided to accept God into my life..well still trying.
Pretty ironic actually, because I said that I wanted someone to talk to (- but I just don't know who) and I'm talking about God where he/she can come into my heart when I can be talking to God! ahaha..yeahh

But Blogger!/God, I'M THROWING EVERYONE AWAY D; - like I'm being so mean to everyone, I don't want to talk to them and I feel like they're not worth talking to ...? (cos God is the one that's worth talking to) hahaha, D;; I even said something mean to someone a few secs ago..farout they got pissed at me ):)

....Sighh..Pls guide me to become a better person and understand others more.

Annd..I really don't like my jealousy side of me to come out during dance.

Love Ann.

oh ello imaginary friend..

Can I talk to you?
"Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me."
According to noughts and crosses by Malorie Blackman - Stephy mentions whoever wrote that saying must have came from his/her armpit ..something like that
and I kind of agree, because words are hurting me right now and should I ignore it?
Because if I ignore it, it will just come flying back ....sighh..
asian parents and their words that turn into sticks and stones which do break my bones.

Being dumb and other stupid mistakes

I think too much. The consequence of this action will make me make stupid mistakes in tests, assignments - the list goes on. Whenever there's a simple e.g maths equation, I think beyond that equation and try to put myself into that equation, work the equation backwards and talk to myself about the equation.......to solve the answer.

..Then I start getting stressed and my brain becomes filled with chemicals which will shorten ma life D;

I suppose stress has been a big thing to resolve problems in our family. To be stressed is the answer. To be happy makes you dumb.


-OMG EXAACRAAY-
Haven't heard from Nat in ages...

dimples!

I never really thought about being dorky with your friends but see this dorky picture? I have defs forgotten how great and fun it is being a dork

BACK OFF MAIDIESS

L'AWKWARD

I just need a rest.

mood swings.

'nugh said.

I want to die.

I finished Awkward in 2 days and I'm still craving for more! The third season doesn't come out till' like next year, and I'm in that horrible drama/book misery again. garrhh my life is not complete without it. (I say that to every good drama or book I've read) And I really cbf doing Art which is like due on Tuesday and it's worth 12 external credits T.T. Art this is like torture...(Unless you enjoy it a lot) taking more hours of your day than you expect.

"Do things happen by choice...or chance?"

Ohh Jenn jenn, and matty (First I thought it was Maddi) how silly of me, what am I going to do when I finish watching this epic drama...

Awkward.

It's so addicting that it's sticking me like meiji almond smart sweets that are melting in my tongue GRRRRRRRRRRR,, GOTTA FINISH MY ARRT

Discovering life's possibilities

So, I have been watching Awkward the hit-tv series on MTV
it's only been a day and I'm already indulging myself into this pretty twisted/cliche teen series.
Awkward has made me realise that it's okay to step out of your comfort zone, and no matter what it's also okay if you don't give a **** about what ppl thinks about you

really recommend on watching, but skins is also pretty good too lol

FOOD.

I feel utterly sick.... food is everywhere!
1) it's because I've been eating a looot and a lot of snacks and fried stuff + more than I should :L
2) Even though I can't do anything with the food I've got, I feel sick for seeing this amount of food around me and it just makes me think of the people in poverty in Malawi or something - eating just millet everyday. Only if I could take this amount of food in my pantry and ship it off to them.

For the past few weeks delicacies were quite scarce in the household so I got use to eating plain stuff like bread...nutella+bread? haha. During my time at my Dance Live-In practice there were heaps of protein bars, snacks, bread and ICE CREAMM and endless amount bars..lolol. This made me think "Omg I gotta eat heaps of these because I won't have this kind of pleasure when I go back home."
 ...nek minnit..
After the camp I just felt stuffed with snacks and the first night I got back home I had fish nd chips..omg COME ON..
Then my house was full of delicacies T.T I just felt like vomiting because I was prepared to go back into an eating plainly kind of state.
This made me feel like Katniss when she got sick of the Capitol's food due to the extreme change in food differences. And how the Capitol's food was very rich
Eating self-cooked rabbit compared to nice Lamb stew with rice

Stupid trash collector #Random written poem?

I ...am like a stupid trash collector.

Stupid because I keep things that are unnecessary and useless for the foreseeing future - which I predict may one day come in handy.
Trash because I keep things that are old and tattered, things that are used once such as scraps, paper and booklets. They may seem like trash to others on shelves but to me they're precious..when honestly, I am lying to myself because all I want to keep are the memories held within those 'trash' therefore I can hold onto the past and be the person that I once was when I was holding onto that paper.. that paper that made me once say 'I love you' and 'I'm falling hard for you' to the paper that made me express my confusion and anger of my confession to you. This little paper gave me hope and light to a new love which I was willing to accept when you gave me your hand to start on this relationship.
But we all know what happens to old love.
It's never the same as starting a new story, it's just pages of known history being re-read.
Why do I give in? Why do I not let go ..it's because I'm a collector.
I am a collector because I keep those pile of junk in my closet, under the bed, on top of my gazillions of shelves. I like to receive more and more anonymous objects to fulfil my satisfaction of nothing but then I get annoyed... I get annoyed at the large amount of stupid, trash things that has overflown my room which has transcended my collection like a calm sea becoming a tsu-na-mi.
But now it is time to eliminate my trash collection for it has become an annoyance. It's like erasing the great memories from my mind, but surely one thing remains. Everything may be gone but there will always be one thing that will remain that may be tangible or intangible, who knows? Depending on how you keep it up, it may be a keeper or a useless object that means nothing to me.

For all I know now is that I'm a trash collector. I'm a stupid trash collector so don't mess with me.

I am shedding invisible tears.

I think I have an awful time deciphering between the limits of procrastination and work.

...


Fck this man (I swear I have been swearing a lot lately), everyone's blog is so genuinely.. nice, while mine still looks like it has been creatively designed by a yr 7 (how ironic, cos' I'm small).

FORGET ABOUT THE TITLE.

Wow, I was going to blurt out everything that was related to anger, jealousy, guilt and sorrow on here but I'm feeling quite content now (: after talking to a random on omegle..

It's funny how one person can make a big difference to your day (:
(We even had a 'date' together while eating curry :D ;) hahahah)

#STRANGERS ARE NOT SCARY

2NE1-Lonely = me?

This somehow refers to me right now.... Meaning of song (Eng Lyrics)
[CL]I know that you're gonna hate me
For saying these words right now
But I ain't got no choice
I just have to let it out

[MINZY]Cause you see lately something's
Changed in my mind
Seems the fire within me has died
I'm a stranger to myself, don't wanna feel this wa-a-ay

[SANDARA]You're so sweet, so lovely
But even so I let go

[CL]I don't know, I don't know
What's taking over me?

[SANDARA]Your loving arms reach out for me
But even so I let go

[CL]I don't know

[SANDARA]I gotta find my way home

[BOM]Baby I'm sorry even now you're here I'm lonely
I'm so selfish, I ain't worthy of your heart
Wait here, and watch me walk away

[MINZY/BOM]I'm sorry, here's the ending to our story
When we're close I still feel like we're worlds apart
I can't stay, cause with you baby
I'm so lonelyx5
Baby I'm so lonelyx5 (x2) (eh-eh)

<<< Their voices soothes me :) hahaha (Does that even make sense?)
(I loved this song so much last year haha) Never expected that I'd feel connected with this song..lonely~ :D ♥

Epsom Girls Grammar.

I get a feeling that ppl in my class find me fckn stupid at my new school cos I'm so fckn laid-back...ahahha since there's not as much work and pressuree as my old school.. =='' ugh..I really dont want to slack off that much D; I wanna be back to the 'organisseddd' annn an frm st cuths :L or shuld i say ann^2 :L (A girl from new school made that nickname up for me) Weell I love it so far... I would upload pictures of new uniform, friends (actually classmates* cos i have no friends :P) Buuuuuut it's all in my fone and I cbf.

#YOLO


yeahh....... time to do some hmwk..:)

♥ -preview post-

This Guy that I once knew..

From this simple relationship

Weird weird weird

I LOVE

Skinny tight pants or patterned leggings
Big accessories with a wacky style
old fashioned tops and grandpa jumpers
Buttoned shirts and weird, traditional, out-of-place outfits
vintage bags and big t-shirts
Asian fashion + European fashion
Big boots and crazy high heels
Ugly things.
Snapbacks and Beanies

F*kyeah! Dr Martens

Simple Things

I love sitting here writing about my random thoughts striking me at any direction - especially ones that doesn't make sense. (I do not dare to say one direction ) Sitting here on my bed at 12am; using a cardboard box as my table while mindlessly typing what I want to say. I love it.

I..have a lot of things to say but I cbf typing it now so I'm just gonna say..

♥

:) Akekekeke

Derp.

I don't wanna do it... but...OK IL WRITE A NEW POST


I amm soooo -not- procrastinatin atm (Cos' im missing out on school and I have heaps of work to do)
I took a day off school today cos I felt terribly sick last night and didn't want to get up this morning..and now..I guess I can say I'm feeling a bit better
TT I'm currently writing my personal response for the book The Hunger Games:Catching fire
And so far.. I DUNNNO what to righht D;, I'm pretty sure there are a lot of good points in the book but my mind is just blank and I can't seem to remember what happens in the book..and tbh I really don't wanna read the book again because the empty-hollow feeling will creep back to me again and reading about the loved ones (e.g peeta and finnick ahehehe) gettin hurt makes me cry D;
 I have to say, Katniss changes a lot after the games and instead of living in her own little rebellious world and was willing (well..she was thinking about it) to run away with Gale in the first book she finally stops running away and is GOING TO BRING THE CAPITOL DOWNN.. (i sorta lost what i was gonna say at this point)

..eh.

Warmth.

This was a msg I wrote in the beginning of the month - a miraaaclee.

Monday 05/3/12

Dear Blogger, (I wrote this on a piece of paper before when I didn't have internet) something quite special happened today. Yoson An, yes my brother had a chat with me about my tone of voice that I usually use towards people when I get annoyed. For me, I think this is the first time in centuries that our bond together actually 'sparked.' (well I reckon it did..for me anyways). Conversation started with the usual grown-up speech about respecting each other. My first thoughts were 'ooh NOT AGAIN T_T'. Because usually when these chats happen it doesn't turn out very well. When he sat me down; for sure the tone of his voice and the relaxation in his eyes prevented me from getting annoyed, but I was only going to get annoyed because of the awkwardness that started to rise in the conversation of having a 'grown-up' chat. It was pretty obvious that he was trying to maintain his anger during the convo because I was trying to get away from the convo haha. Conversation ended with "aw, give me a hug". Because I made a deal/agreed with what he said. And as an annoying sister who thinks she has a terrible bond with her sibling  - I rejected the hug.

But when I rejected it, it didn't feel weird/awkward or 'I can't believe he said that.'

I walked away with a smile on my face and somehow glad we had this kind of convo.

:)

I..have a lot of things to say but I cbf typing it now so I'm just gonna say..

♥

:) Akekekeke

D-D-D-D TANG.

hi, you may be reading this post right now.
And I just want to tell you...


DONT BE SAD :D
ur not friendzoned... ur friend-benni-fffle zoned LOL..idk wat that is

This has happened to me and a lot of people

Do you know that I do?...

    There will always be that one lover that makes you feel like this..

Those who read my blog:

Jk, Stop reading my personal blog and gtfoo D;.
x

(I hardly blog anyways)

I CRAZE OVER ROMANTIC SHEIEET

 OMG ok so I came across the wikihow site on 'How to win a teenage girl's heart' and who knows what I was looking for on google but I found this quite interesting and accurate. My first impression of the site was "Huh?! Man.. wikihow has everything, who on earth would goes on here to learn a step-to-step guide on how to win a girl's heart? Only idiots who can't date for sht" ...nek minnit.... ahahaha XD. (NO I am not trying to win a teenage girl's heart and this seems pretty..pedo wen they had to specify a 'teenage' girl ..I wonder if there's another version of this like: How to win a woman's heart XD..) ANND I GOTTA SAAY the advices they give the guys are soooo trueee (well obviously, cos' the author of this guide is probably a woman) The point is, I underestimated wikihow XD ahahah...Once I started reading this guide it was like 'Girls almost always fall for romantic guys' dead right. I found that it is nice when a guy - 'Stroke her cheeks very softly with your thumb. Make it so soft that she can barely feel your thumb. Girls like that.' and to 'Make her laugh. Girls love funny guys! But don't say disgusting things that you think are funny, as that will only gross her out!!!.'and how 'Whisper to her while kissing her. Girls really love it when you whisper nice things like "I've dreamed of kissing you since the first minute I saw you!" or "you're beautiful." Make sure, though, that your lips do not lose contact with hers. Avoid adjectives like "hot" or "sexy."' I even got all excited when it was so damn right - knowing that the guide knows how a girl feels =o=...gosh i crazze of romantic/lovable crap so easily HOHOHO.

Wanna have a read? check the article out -How to Win a Teenage Girl's Heart-

GARRHHH~! KAICHOU W-M-S!

Potato-Otaku faan for lifee' ^_^ . x

 

What is Love?

OMFG. TUMBLR AGAIN!

So me.

WEEELL, I haven't used my tumlbr in AGESSS but I just went back on recently (not on mine) just to check out pictures..u know..the casual stuff. AND ARGHH every single pic I like just makes me wanna rebloog but I forgot my tumblr password D; andd I don't wanna open it upp again cos' I'll just keep on reblogging about random crap and I cbf going through the process of re-newing a pw etc. LOL. How bout I just get everysingle pic I like and post it on here instead? LOL nahh..too troublesome compared to a simple click -reblog-.
WELL..I'm just gonna REBLOG pics onto blogpost :L
SIGHH..tumblr.. it makes me laugh :L and cry D; and smile :) and frown ):. and..yeh thats it LOL

WHEN SOMEONE LIKES THE SAME BAND, SONG, TV SHOW ETC AS YOU...

THE ONE BEST FRIEND YOU DO WEIRD THINGS WITH...