Umm.. I actually have no idea how to use blogspot/blogger, even though I've been blogging and signed up since last year, i really have no idea how to set out stuff...like check followers or add ppl as friends, or see their blogs and follow them etc..
I might as well screw upp for everything XD :D
Monday, July 25, 2011
FCUK.
WOW, I haven't blogged in awhile.
And even if i usually do, no one really frckn cares.
It's like talking to myself, this is a little corner for me to procrastinate about my everyday life, and blogging can also improve your english ..not that my english has been better, it still sucks.
What do you do when you feel like the world's against you? Not that I feel like the world is against me or anything but... I feel empty...
It's the holidays. And everyday as life goes on and on, I feel like I'm getting no where with my future. I want to explore, do some random crap to make this year worthwhile ..well so far, it's been great. But not so great. 2 weeks of holz has gone already, and I feel like for the past 2 weeks I've done nothing but sit in my room. Well life feels like shit atm and all i can say is 'FCUK'. I feel bored and tired, and lonely. I'm very confused.. but most of all, I'm a loner. I'm saying this because I feel lonely.....
.I've been going out with friends in the holidays but that doesn't resolve anything. Not that people has been rejecting me, but more like I've been rejecting them these holidays, because I feel confused. Whenever I'm down, I normally find a way out to be happy again by talking to people, but that doesn't work anymore. I've de-activated my facebook, avoided talking to anyone online and simply locked myself out from this world and have been staying in my room for the whole time. ..what am I looking for? Love. family love, friend love..what is it? Or maybe, it's the depressed feeling I still have after finishing the whole series of the Hunger Games because I just absolutely love it. But ofc, that's not it. There's no one to talk to to simply stop myself from feeling very down but blog about it on here. (But what I am afraid of is blogging about it too much that whoever reads this will find me weird. baha ^_^)
I'm a bitch.
I'm a stupid, self-centered, ignorant bitch.
I know I am one, because I've been treating people like they are crap.
Normally I'd get back up from these problems and try to fix things but I no longer will because no matter what, I end up being a selfish bitch as usual. Maybe it's just my hormones -part of my "puberty"- haha wat puberty? XD . but I've been emotional as ever, I cry a lot from time to time for no reason. I feel much more sensitive than I've ever been so I get hurt really easily.
...
I've stopped dancing.
Without dancing, I feel like nothing. Not being able to do something I really love feels terrible/miserable. It's so hard to start again, because of random family stuff going on, but that doesn't mean I should just give up.
And another depressing thing to add onto my list of worries. I feel like I'm on the edge of tempting to leave my school, because private schools is definitely not my thing. After all these years of being in that school I've felt great and safe with the learning and everything but I don't feel like ME. and I don't feel connected to people around me.
<3 chu~
And even if i usually do, no one really frckn cares.
It's like talking to myself, this is a little corner for me to procrastinate about my everyday life, and blogging can also improve your english ..not that my english has been better, it still sucks.
What do you do when you feel like the world's against you? Not that I feel like the world is against me or anything but... I feel empty...
It's the holidays. And everyday as life goes on and on, I feel like I'm getting no where with my future. I want to explore, do some random crap to make this year worthwhile ..well so far, it's been great. But not so great. 2 weeks of holz has gone already, and I feel like for the past 2 weeks I've done nothing but sit in my room. Well life feels like shit atm and all i can say is 'FCUK'. I feel bored and tired, and lonely. I'm very confused.. but most of all, I'm a loner. I'm saying this because I feel lonely.....
.I've been going out with friends in the holidays but that doesn't resolve anything. Not that people has been rejecting me, but more like I've been rejecting them these holidays, because I feel confused. Whenever I'm down, I normally find a way out to be happy again by talking to people, but that doesn't work anymore. I've de-activated my facebook, avoided talking to anyone online and simply locked myself out from this world and have been staying in my room for the whole time. ..what am I looking for? Love. family love, friend love..what is it? Or maybe, it's the depressed feeling I still have after finishing the whole series of the Hunger Games because I just absolutely love it. But ofc, that's not it. There's no one to talk to to simply stop myself from feeling very down but blog about it on here. (But what I am afraid of is blogging about it too much that whoever reads this will find me weird. baha ^_^)
I'm a bitch.
I'm a stupid, self-centered, ignorant bitch.
I know I am one, because I've been treating people like they are crap.
Normally I'd get back up from these problems and try to fix things but I no longer will because no matter what, I end up being a selfish bitch as usual. Maybe it's just my hormones -part of my "puberty"- haha wat puberty? XD . but I've been emotional as ever, I cry a lot from time to time for no reason. I feel much more sensitive than I've ever been so I get hurt really easily.
...
I've stopped dancing.
Without dancing, I feel like nothing. Not being able to do something I really love feels terrible/miserable. It's so hard to start again, because of random family stuff going on, but that doesn't mean I should just give up.
And another depressing thing to add onto my list of worries. I feel like I'm on the edge of tempting to leave my school, because private schools is definitely not my thing. After all these years of being in that school I've felt great and safe with the learning and everything but I don't feel like ME. and I don't feel connected to people around me.
<3 chu~
Monday, March 7, 2011
LEAN ON ME
:O soo a lot happened these past few weeks. I JOINED debating :D but idk if ppl in my group actually likes meh bein in ther :L. WELL...we've been reading the book 'unwind' for english, and i hav to say this is what made me get into books a lot moree :D i actually enjoy reading a book once in a while other than go on FB 24/7 ahhaha.
-It's better to have a close friend and have no other friends than have a bunch of friends that don't really care about you-
I've been feeling a bit sad/stressed/weird. the pass few days, it's like my feelings are all mixed in a jar and u just shook them up like tha, and the whole thing turns into one solution - LOL science souvent and solute = solution, geddit? hahaa. I've been getting closer to guys a lot more lately than girls. But the thing with guys is that, it's a bit weird 'expressing' your feelings in front of them when u feel sad or happyy because they probably don't give a crap, so it's always best to have a good girl friend :). Sometimes during situations where i just wanna EXPLODE and really tell someone about how i feel, that's when it confuses meh, because I don't know who I should talk to? I don't really have a 'close close' friend at school...which is quite sad =\. I hav one outside of school but it doesn't really make any difference because the other person will have no idea what you're on about, when u blab about all thesee problems u hav at school. Because sometimes..we all need a helping hand (:, and i literally need one at times buut I'm not too sure who i should lean on? - haha. If you ever read this (: and u see me when I'm sad come comfort meh :D ID BE HAPPY AND GIV U COOKIES! ^^ lewl. BE A GOOD LISTENER. hahaha, but most of the times i don't really express my feelings- but it's sort of bad because I bottle it up on the inside ): At times, I probably really want to let out my all to you, and u might be all wtf? 0o..just ignore meh then (: because it always feels best to tell someone than to keep it inside, as long as the other person knows that you're there for them or you're maybe 'listenin' haha then they'd be happy (:
cos'..
Some~times in our lives, we all have pain, we all have sorroww.
But if we are wise, we know that there's always tomorrow.
Lean on ME, when you're not strong
and I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on.
FOR it won't be lonng till' I'm gonna need, somebody to
LEAN ON.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
24/02
It's musssiccc time! This year I've enrolled for music as my subject. Seemed pretty awkward at first since i kneww nothingg much about theory cos' haven't done music in agees. But it got funn and I quite enjoy it, -as time weent past. We're wrriting a songgg, and can't WAIT to finish it ^^
I realised that writing a song issss a lot harder than I thought it was. It's not the music problem it's the lyrics that bothered me the most. Our song's pretty cliche - the structure of it :L - it's an inspirational song about life, i hopee it works out finee ^^ annd talk more abouut it nxxt time - or maybe post the lyrics up.(:
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I realised that writing a song issss a lot harder than I thought it was. It's not the music problem it's the lyrics that bothered me the most. Our song's pretty cliche - the structure of it :L - it's an inspirational song about life, i hopee it works out finee ^^ annd talk more abouut it nxxt time - or maybe post the lyrics up.(:
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random(*&@*(
ARGH. I do not know how to set out my blog properly :L and my blogger template designer thing won't work. ==" TO start blogging? I'm just goin to post the random shizz out there :L .
normally, I'd blog and talk about what I've done, in a funny/happy way and how i TALK LIKE THIS (:
normally, I'd blog and talk about what I've done, in a funny/happy way and how i TALK LIKE THIS (:
WELL, I'm just going to TALK properly this time :L writing online, and not bein crazy - not meaning anything on my posts. And I DON'T care if my stuff doesn't make sense because these are my THOUGHTS- which is quite random as you can see :L and hope to blog more about my weird unusual/uninteresting life.
Keep blogging. x
2011!
wow..it's already 2011 and then 2012! D: we're ALL GONNA DIEE! just kidd.
I have two blogs, tumblr and blogspot ^^ ...and this year, I'm going to write my thoughts, how i feel and random shizz on my blogspot here ^^~~ just like a little diary to blog about everyday craziness :L, because usually I'm not the kind of person who would type up about their everyday life online/anywheree basically. And tumblr is where i put pictures of ppl naked on the internet.. LOL JUST JOKING. I'm such a sick child :L...well it's just funny and cool pictures (: haha TOODDLES.!
I have two blogs, tumblr and blogspot ^^ ...and this year, I'm going to write my thoughts, how i feel and random shizz on my blogspot here ^^~~ just like a little diary to blog about everyday craziness :L, because usually I'm not the kind of person who would type up about their everyday life online/anywheree basically. And tumblr is where i put pictures of ppl naked on the internet.. LOL JUST JOKING. I'm such a sick child :L...well it's just funny and cool pictures (: haha TOODDLES.!
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